PAIN LIKE THIS HAS TO BE DANGEROUS, NOT KNOWING WHEN OR WHERE MY NEXT SMILE IS COMING, AND WHEN THE SMILES DO COME, I BECOME...UPSET, WHAT A TEASE...BECAUSE THE PAIN, THE PAIN DOESNT LEAVE, SO HOW COULD I POSSIBLY HAVE SOMETHING TO SMILE ABOUT...THE PAIN STARTS IN MY CHEST THEN TRAVELS DOWN TO MY STOMACH...IT IS MY OWN FAULT THAT I CANT SEEM TO GET OVER IT, FOR REASONS UNKNOWN I TAKE MYSELF BACK TO THAT PAINFUL PLACE..FORGIVE AND FORGET, FORGIVE AND FORGET...I TRY TO FORGIVE..FORGETTING ISN'T EVEN AN OPTION..SO HOW DO I GET OVER IT, HOW DO I GET THROUGH IT...FORGIVENESS SEEMS TO BE MY ONLY WAY OUT, PROBLEM IS, I DONT KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN TO FORGIVE...WHEN I SAY I HAVE FORGIVEN MY HEART CALLS ME A LIAR, MY HEART SAYS YOUR NOT COMPLETELY OVER THIS...AND THE STRUGGLE CONTINUES